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An Addict’s Poem


01.26.12 Posted in words to linger on by

Grace Ames is a freelance writer and poet from Charleston SC. She is currently writing her first novel.

An Addict’s Poem
By Grace Ames

I have never been punished with an addiction
until I found that one thing
I couldn’t let go of … 

I would think about 
dream about
pray for

Feel it in my hands
against my skin
my heart would beat for it every day.

Pain was so great
I promised myself
I would never go back.

The sting of walking away,
knowing I would never feel that completeness again,
killed me.

I couldn’t focus
could feel my heart breaking
begging me for our obsession.

I tried to live a normal life
hiding my feelings
my pain, my suffering.

No one would understand this obsession.

When I could stay away
the side effects would slow and start to disappear.

I gained back my courage
my self love to feel I was
better than any addiction.

I convinced myself I could go back
the vicious cycle wouldn’t start again.
But it always did.

Avoid the dealer
at any cost.

Staying away is the only answer.
My heart, mind, body can’t take the
consequences much more.

Each time it breaks me down a little more … 
soon I may never find the strength to fight it.

I must avoid that one thing that breaks me
I must avoid my one addiction

I must avoid you.



One Response to “An Addict’s Poem”

  1. bobbie troy says:

    A tough thing to do!

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